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I love this passage of Scripture for a lot of reasons.  When the Lord first really captured my heart in 1993 one of the first passages I committed to memory was Ephesians 2:8-9 & that has served me well over the years.  Another reason I love this passage is because there is such a clear pivot point.  With accute clarity Paul shows us our reality before Christ & our reality after Christ.  And it all hinges around two small eternity altering words in verse 4: ”but God”.   Everything before these words seem to rush them & then from them flow new life.

I spent some time this morning mulling over this passage….I pray that I never grow tired hearing about the richeness of God’s mercy & the great love with which he loved us.  And since I’m a visual guy I laid out the passage in a way that seems to flow with Paul’s argument.

I wrote this blog post for the organization I work for (www.hopefororphansblog.com) & thought I’d post it up here too.  This is the second post in a three part series on the Haiti crisis.  The first one centered on the question of adoption – click HERE to read that one.

In the past week I have received scores of emails from organizations asking me to give money to their Haiti relief efforts.  Many websites are now carrying advertisements for all types of non-profit organizations that are serving those devastated by the earthquake.  When a crisis strikes and people are moved to help there are always going to be huge financial needs, as is the case in Haiti.

So that our giving is not done in a haphazard manner it’s helpful to have a framework or a lens through which we view these requests – a “why?”, a “ how?” and a “who?”.

Why:

Motives matter.  It’s important that we remember why we ought to be giving financially to serve those who are hurting.  We need to be honest with the reality that as long as we are alive we will wrestle with our motives.

In 2 Corinthians 8 & 9 the apostle Paul reminds his readers that the reason they have excess is so that they can share with others in need.  We have been blessed financially so that we can be a blessing to others.  We have been given much so that we can give much.  And don’t miss this – all this flows out of the gospel.  We see in Christ the one who “though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich” (2 Corinthians 8:9, NASB).  We find that Christ, though he “existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.” (Philippians 2:6-8, NASB).  Make no mistake about it – our giving should start from what we’ve been given through the birth, life, death & resurrection of Christ.  We love because He first loved us.

This means that our motivation for giving should not lie in our tax deduction. It should not spring from a desire to have our name on a building.  It should not emanate from the thought that God will find greater pleasure in me, for if you are in Christ then you are already clothed in righteousness (2 Corinthians 5:21) and co-heirs with the Son (Romans 8:16ff).

How:
With requests coming at you almost daily how do you determine who you should give to?  What criteria should be used to sift through the many ministries, organizations and NGOs?  Randy Alcorn, the President of Eternal Perspective Ministries said it succinctly: “Our mailboxes are filled with urgent requests from innumerable ministries. The needs may be real, and needs are important, but they are also endless. So needs alone are not sufficient reason. For the glory of God, we must say ‘no’ to many need-meeting opportunities, even most of them, the vast majority of them, in order that we may say a strong ‘yes’ to those that God has uniquely called us to support.”

Might I suggest two criteria to start with  – there are certainly others you could & should use, but I think these two are good ones to get you started:

1)      Gospel-centric:  We believe that the God created man with a body (that is temporary) and a soul (which lives on for eternity).  Since they are both God’s handiwork both are important, but the state of a person’s soul is insurmountably more important. There is an African proverb that says, “An empty stomach has no ears” – which is another way of saying we cannot ignore people’s physical needs for the sake of simply passing along the gospel. And so when we look to give to an organization that is going to help provide for people’s physical needs we ought to look for one that has the long term (e.g. eternal) perspective in mind.

2)      Accountable: We believe that you should only funnel your resources to organizations and ministries that are accountable.  Membership to an organization like the Evangelical Council for Financial Accountablity (ECFA) is a great way to filter through some of the ministries you may be looking to support.  The key is that the organization be above reproach in the way they handle their resources, their financial reporting & disclosure, their donor development and other key aspects of their ministry.

I would also encourage you to check out Randy Alcorn’s writing. He has been producing really solid content on this whole idea of stewardship.  I’ve found his writings very solid from a biblical perspective & very challenging from a personal perspective.  You would do well to spend some time on his website.   One post that is particularly relevant to the topic I’m addressing now is: Nineteen Questions to Ask Before You Give to Any Organization

Who:
We’ve talked about the why & the how – what about the who?  Let me suggest a few organizations that I believe are worthy of your resources:

  • Global Aid Network (GAiN) – Providing humanitarian relief on the ground. GAiN had prepositioned a container in Haiti before the earthquake & had supplies already in the country.
  • Children’s Hunger Fund – CHF was in the right place, with aid products, training, and strategies, at the right time, just days before the earthquake struck. They have responded immediately and have begun to launch long-term poverty relief strategies.
  • Hope International – A leader in the Christian micro-finance space.  You can give to their Haiti Re-Development Fund that will be put to use to help the people of Haiti rebuild their lives.
  • World Orphans – Partnering with the local Haitian church to care for orphans. 

For other recommended organizations you can click HERE for Desiring God/John Piper’s list or HERE for Together for Adoption/Dan Cruver’s list.

There are two days I love more than any other.

One is a day in late-January 1993 (I don’t remember the exact day) when the Lord flipped the switch in my heart and I saw, really saw, for the first time my utter, complete & comphrensive need for a Savior. That day transformed my eternity.

The other day is today, January 7. For on this day – thirty-something years ago my sweet bride was brought into this world. This day transformed everything I know about love.  She is an amazing wife, a loyal friend, an unbelievably creative mother and a faithful follower of Christ.  She would be quick to tell you that she’s not perfect…but she’s perfect for me.  Proverbs 18:22 sums it up just right – “He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor fromt he Lord.”  I have found favor upon favor upon favor!

Happy birthday my love!  You are a treasure to me beyond all other women!

Missy Leventhal

Missy & Lilly

Missy, Caroline & Abigail_Summer 2009

I thought I’d post up our adoption videos. It’s so fun to look back on our trip to China – coming up on three years ago and remember the excitement of bringing Abigail home.

Here is our Gotcha Day video:

Gotcha Day - 7/2/2007

Gotcha Day - 7/2/2007

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Here is some footage of an average morning in Guangzhou:
One morning in Guangzhou

One morning in Guangzhou

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Here is a video of our journey back to Dallas, TX:
Welcome Home Abigail

Welcome Home Abigail

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Here is our 19 day China trip condensed into 3 1/2 minutes:
China Trip in 3 1/2 Minutes

China Trip in 3 1/2 Minutes

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I saw this video & felt compelled to share it. Powerful story of grace – reflected both horizontally with man & vertically with Christ.

(HT: Jason Kovacs)

December 29, 2002 – seven years ago today the Lord blessed me with one of the greatest gifts ever – my firstborn baby….my boy, Daniel.  I can scarcely believe that he is seven years old today. How is it possible that seven years have passed in the blink of an eye?   Happy birthday buddy!  We love you more than words can describe!

In honor of Daniel’s seventh birthday here are seven questions he & I discussed over donuts this morning:

  1. What is your favorite food? – Ribs (daddy’s ribs)
  2. What do you want to be when you grow up? – A football player for the Dallas Cowboys
  3. What is your favorite memory? – Going to Paw Paw’s house (Cut n’ Shoot) because he’s got such a giant backyard (10 acres) with a fishing pond on it.
  4. If you could have one super power what would it be? – Force Lightening from my hands like the Emperor in Return of the Jedi
  5. What do like most at school, besides recess? – Our brain stretches (math stuff)
  6. What is the best thing about being the oldest child? – That I get to do tougher jobs & help with heavy stuff.
  7. What is your favorite thing to do with dad? – Go to the golf store.

Here are a couple of pictures of my boy through the years:

April 2003

December 2004

April 2005

October 2006

July 2007

February 2008

May 2009

December 2009

I’d love to introduce you to my new son – Wu Chang Shun (or Joshua). Missy & I received pre-approval from the Chinese government (CCAA) to move forward with adopting Chang Shun – a sweet little 2 ½ year old boy. He’s currently living with a foster family in Wuhan City in the Chinese province of Hubei.

We came across this little guy on our adoption agency’s waiting child list (older children & kids with special needs). Like our sweet Abigail, Chang Shun was born with a cleft lip & cleft palate. And like Abigail, his lip was repaired in China & like Abigail we’ll have his palate repaired when we get him home. We have now moved into the mad paper chase race to get everything completed as quickly as possible so we can adopt Chang Shun & bring him into our crazy, chaotic home! He’ll fit right between Abigail & Lillian – which I think is a perfect spot for him!

We’d love for you to join us in praying for Wu Chang Shun & for us. Here are some specific things you can pray for:

  • That the Lord would guard his heart & his mind
  • That He would prepare him for us & us for him
  • That we’d be able to move quickly through the paperwork process
  • For God’s continued financial provision – you wouldn’t believe me if I told you how the Lord has already shown up in this area.
  • That we would continually give this process over to the Lord….the truth is that all our kids, those in our home & those we want to bring into our home belong to Him. In God’s sovereignty & in His plan He expedites & He delays, He allows the wind to be at our back & He leads us into the chaos of the hurricane, & He gives and takes away. In all these things our heart’s desire is to say with firm assurance that, “He is good & His plan is perfect” – even while the word ‘orphan’ still exists.
  • Would you also pray for Chang Shun’s birth mother – that wherever she is she might come to know the saving grace of Christ…grace that overcomes the deepest heartaches & the toughest circumstances

Here are some pictures of our little guy.

Yesterday I shared Tozer’s chapter on The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing from his timeless book entitled The Pursuit of God. The second of my top three chapters from outside the Bible comes from C.S. Lewis’ book titled, The Weight of Glory and Other Addresses. This book is a collection of nine addresses or sermons that C.S. Lewis gave in the 1940s. Each one stands alone and each one is worth reading. Of the nine addresses the one that has most impacted me is called The Weight of Glory. This was originally preached as a sermon in the Church of St. Mary the Virgin in Oxford on June 8, 1942.

Outside of Scripture C.S. Lewis has made the biggest impact on my thinking about God & all things related to Him. His ability to extend concepts to their natural conclusion has been extremely helpful for me as I have evaluated certain concepts that I believe.

Here some quotes from this great chapter:

Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.

 The promises of Scripture may very roughly be reduced to five heads. It is promised, firstly, that we shall be with Christ; secondly, that we shall be like Him; thirdly, with an enormous wealth of imagery, that we shall have “glory”; fourthly, that we shall, in some sense, be fed or feasted or entertained; and, finally, that we shall have some sort of official position in the universe—ruling cities, judging angels, being pillars of God’s temple.

 I turn next to the idea of glory. There is no getting away from the fact that this idea is very prominent in the New Testament and in early Christian writings. Salvation is constantly associated with palms, crowns, white robes, thrones, and splendour like the sun and stars. All this makes no immediate appeal to me at all, and in that respect I fancy I am a typical modern. Glory suggests two ideas to me, of which one seems wicked and the other ridiculous. Either glory means to me fame, or it means luminosity. As for the first, since to be famous means to be better known than other people, the desire for fame appears to me as a competitive passion and therefore of hell rather than heaven. As for the second, who wishes to become a kind of living electric light bulb?

When I began to look into this matter I was shocked to find such different Christians as Milton, Johnson and Thomas Aquinas taking heavenly glory quite frankly in the sense of fame or good report. But not fame conferred by our fellow creatures—fame with God, approval or (I might say) “appreciation’ by God. And then, when I had thought it over, I saw that this view was scriptural; nothing can eliminate from the parable the divine accolade, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant.” With that, a good deal of what I had been thinking all my life fell down like a house of cards. I suddenly remembered that no one can enter heaven except as a child; and nothing is so obvious in a child—not in a conceited child, but in a good child—as its great and undisguised pleasure in being praised. Not only in a child, either, but even in a dog or a horse. Apparently what I had mistaken for humility had, all these years. prevented me from understanding what is in fact the humblest, the most childlike, the most creaturely of pleasures—nay, the specific pleasure of the inferior: the pleasure a beast before men, a child before its father, a pupil before his teacher, a creature before its Creator. I am not forgetting how horribly this most innocent desire is parodied in our human ambitions, or how very quickly, in my own experience, the lawful pleasure of praise from those whom it was my duty to please turns into the deadly poison of self-admiration. But I thought I could detect a moment—a very, very short moment—before this happened, during which the satisfaction of having pleased those whom I rightly loved and rightly feared was pure. And that is enough to raise our thoughts to what may happen when the redeemed soul, beyond all hope and nearly beyond belief, learns at last that she has pleased Him whom she was created to please. There will be no room for vanity then. She will be free from the miserable illusion that it is her doing. With no taint of what we should now call self-approval she will most innocently rejoice in the thing that God has made her to be, and the moment which heals her old inferiority complex for ever will also drown her pride deeper than Prospero’s book. Perfect humility dispenses with modesty. If God is satisfied with the work, the work may be satisfied with itself; “it is not for her to bandy compliments with her Sovereign.” I can imagine someone saying that he dislikes my idea of heaven as a place where we are patted on the back. But proud misunderstanding is behind that dislike. In the end that Face which is the delight or the terror of the universe must be turned upon each of us either with one expression or with the other, either conferring glory inexpressible or inflicting shame that can never be cured or disguised. I read in a periodical the other day that the fundamental thing is how we think of God. By God Himself, it is not! How God thinks of us is not only more important, but infinitely more important. Indeed, how we think of Him is of no importance except in so far as it is related to how He thinks of us. It is written that we shall “stand before” Him, shall appear, shall be inspected. The promise of glory is the promise, almost incredible and only possible by the work of Christ, that some of us, that any of us who really chooses, shall actually survive that examination, shall find approval, shall please God. To please God…to be a real ingredient in the divine happiness…to be loved by God, not merely pitied, but delighted in as an artist delights in his work or a father in a son—it seems impossible, a weight or burden of glory which our thoughts can hardly sustain. But so it is.

 For glory means good report with God, acceptance by God, response, acknowledgment, and welcome into the heart of things. The door on which we have been knocking all our lives will open at last. Perhaps it seems rather crude to describe glory as the fact of being “noticed” by God. But this is almost the language of the New Testament. St. Paul promises to those who love God not, as we should expect, that they will know Him, but that they will be known by Him (I Cor. viii. 3). It is a strange promise. Does not God know all things at all times? But it is dreadfully reechoed in another passage of the New Testament. There we are warned that it may happen to any one of us to appear at last before the face of God and hear only the appalling words: “I never knew you. Depart from Me.” In some sense, as dark to the intellect as it is unendurable to the feelings, we can be both banished from the presence of Him who is present everywhere and erased from the knowledge of Him who knows all. We can be left utterly and absolutely outside—repelled, exiled, estranged, finally and unspeakably ignored. On the other hand, we can be called in, welcomed, received, acknowledged. We walk every day on the razor edge between these two incredible possibilities. Apparently, then, our lifelong nostalgia, our longing to be reunited with something in the universe from which we now feel cut off, to be on the inside of some door which we have always seen from the outside, is no mere neurotic fancy, but the truest index of our real situation. And to be at last summoned inside would be both glory and honour beyond all our merits and also the healing of that old ache.

 And Lewis closes this address with a powerful statement of application.

Meanwhile the cross comes before the crown and tomorrow is a Monday morning. A cleft has opened in the pitiless walls of the world, and we are invited to follow our great Captain inside. The following Him is, of course, the essential point. That being so, it may be asked what practical use there is in the speculations which I have been indulging. I can think of at least one such use. It may be possible for each to think too much of his own potential glory hereafter; it is hardly possible for him to think too often or too deeply about that of his neighbour. The load, or weight, or burden of my neighbour’s glory should be laid daily on my back, a load so heavy that only humility can carry it, and the backs of the proud will be broken. It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities, it is with the awe and the circumspection proper to them, that we should conduct all our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilization—these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit—immortal horrors or everlasting splendours. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously—no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption. And our charity must be a real and costly love, with deep feeling for the sins in spite of which we love the sinner—no mere tolerance or indulgence which parodies love as flippancy parodies merriment. Next to the Blessed Sacrament itself, your neighbour is the holiest object presented to your senses. If he is your Christian neighbour he is holy in almost the same way, for in him also Christ vere latitat—the glorifier and the glorified, Glory Himself, is truly hidden.

Over the next couple of days I am going to share three of the most impactful chapters I’ve read outside of the Bible.  The first one is from A.W. Tozer’s book entitled The Pursuit of God: Chapter 2:  The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing.  I first read this book back at James Madison University - maybe 13 or 14 years ago.  I was deeply moved by this book the first time I read it & over the years I find that I am equally challenged (perhaps more so) with each re-reading.  Because the copywrite has expired I am able to post up the entire chapter of this book. 

This chapter is especially applicable as we approach Christmas where for many of us Jesus has been replaced by a self-absored consumerism.   Chapter 2 is short so I encourage you to take 15-20 minutes to read this section & allow the truth of Tozer’s words to pierce your heart.  Better still….read the whole thing. Feel free to share your thoughts.

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matt. 5:3

Before the Lord God made man upon the earth He first prepared for him by creating a world of useful and pleasant things for his sustenance and delight. In the Genesis account of the creation these are called simply `things.’ They were made for man’s uses, but they were meant always to be external to the man and subservient to him. In the deep heart of the man was a shrine where none but God was worthy to come. Within him was God; without, a thousand gifts which God had showered upon him.

But sin has introduced complications and has made those very gifts of God a potential source of ruin to the soul.

Our woes began when God was forced out of His central shrine and `things’ were allowed to enter. Within the human heart `things’ have taken over. Men have now by nature no peace within their hearts, for God is crowned there no longer, but there in the moral dusk stubborn and aggressive usurpers fight among themselves for first place on the throne.

This is not a mere metaphor, but an accurate analysis of our real spiritual trouble. There is within the human heart a tough fibrous root of fallen life whose nature is to possess, always to possess. It covets `things’ with a deep and fierce passion. The pronouns `my’ and `mine’ look innocent enough in print, but their constant and universal use is significant. They express the real nature of the old Adamic man better than a thousand volumes of theology could do. They are verbal symptoms of our deep disease. The roots of our hearts have grown down into things, and we dare not pull up one rootlet lest we die. Things have become necessary to us, a development never originally intended. God’s gifts now take the place of God, and the whole course of nature is upset by the monstrous substitution.

Our Lord referred to this tyranny of things when He said to His disciples, `If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever shall lose his life for my sake shall find it.’ (Matt. 16:24-25).

Breaking this truth into fragments for our better understanding, it would seem that there is within each of us an enemy which we tolerate at our peril. Jesus called it `life’ and `self,’ or as we would say, the self-life. Its chief characteristic is its possessiveness: the words `gain’ and `profit’ suggest this. To allow this enemy to live is in the end to lose everything. To repudiate it and give up all for Christ’s sake is to lose nothing at last, but to preserve everything unto life eternal. And possibly also a hint is given here as to the only effective way to destroy this foe: it is by the Cross: `Let him take up his cross and follow me.’

The way to deeper knowledge of God is through the lonely valleys of soul poverty and abnegation of all things. The blessed ones who possess the Kingdom are they who have repudiated every external thing and have rooted from their hearts all sense of possessing. They are `poor in spirit.’ They have reached an inward state paralleling the outward circumstances of the common beggar in the streets of Jerusalem; that is what the word `poor’ as Christ used it actually means. These blessed poor are no longer slaves to the tyranny of things. They have broken the yoke of the oppressor; and this they have done not by fighting but by surrendering. Though free from all sense of possessing, they yet possess all things. `Theirs is the kingdom of heaven.’

Let me exhort you to take this seriously. It is not to be understood as mere Bible teaching to be stored away in the mind along with an inert mass of other doctrines. It is a marker on the road to greener pastures, a path chiseled against the steep sides of the mount of God. We dare not try to by-pass it if we would follow on in this holy pursuit. We must ascend a step at a time. If we refuse one step we bring our progress to an end.

As is frequently true, this New Testament principle of spiritual life finds its best illustration in the Old Testament. In the story of Abraham and Isaac we have a dramatic picture of the surrendered life as well as an excellent commentary on the first Beatitude.

Abraham was old when Isaac was born, old enough indeed to have been his grandfather, and the child became at once the delight and idol of his heart. From that moment when he first stooped to take the tiny form awkwardly in his arms he was an eager love slave of his son. God went out of His way to comment on the strength of this affection. And it is not hard to understand. The baby represented everything sacred to his father’s heart: the promises of God, the covenants, the hopes of the years and the long messianic dream. As he watched him grow from babyhood to young manhood the heart of the old man was knit closer and closer with the life of his son, till at last the relationship bordered upon the perilous. It was then that God stepped in to save both father and son from the consequences of an uncleansed love.

`Take now thy son,’ said God to Abraham, `thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt-offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.’ (Gen 22:2) The sacred writer spares us a close-up of the agony that night on the slopes near Beersheba when the aged man had it out with his God, but respectful imagination may view in awe the bent form and convulsive wrestling alone under the stars. Possibly not again until a Greater than Abraham wrestled in the Garden of Gethsemane did such mortal pain visit a human soul. If only the man himself might have been allowed to die. That would have been easier a thousand times, for he was old now, and to die would have been no great ordeal for one who had walked so long with God. Besides, it would have been a last sweet pleasure to let his dimming vision rest upon the figure of his stalwart son who would live to carry on the Abrahamic line and fulfill in himself the promises of God made long before in Ur of the Chaldees.

How should he slay the lad! Even if he could get the consent of his wounded and protesting heart, how could he reconcile the act with the promise, `In Isaac shall thy seed be called’? This was Abraham’s trial by fire, and he did not fail in the crucible. While the stars still shone like sharp white points above the tent where the sleeping Isaac lay, and long before the gray dawn had begun to lighten the east, the old saint had made up his mind. He would offer his son as God had directed him to do, and then trust God to raise him from the dead. This, says the writer to the Hebrews, was the solution his aching heart found sometime in the dark night, and he rose `early in the morning’ to carry out the plan. It is beautiful to see that, while he erred as to God’s method, he had correctly sensed the secret of His great heart. And the solution accords well with the New Testament Scripture, `Whosoever will lose… for my sake shall find…’

God let the suffering old man go through with it up to the point where He knew there would be no retreat, and then forbade him to lay a hand upon the boy. To the wondering patriarch He now says in effect, `It’s all right, Abraham. I never intended that you should actually slay the lad. I only wanted to remove him from the temple of your heart that I might reign unchallenged there. I wanted to correct the perversion that existed in your love. Now you may have the boy, sound and well. Take him and go back to your tent. Now I know that thou fearest God, seeing that thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son, from me.’

Then heaven opened and a voice was heard saying to him, `By myself I have sworn, saith the Lord, for because thou hast done this thing, and hast not withheld thy son, thine only son: that in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore; and thy seed shall possess the gate of his enemies; and in thy seed shall all the nations of the earth be blessed; because thou hast obeyed my voice.’

The old man of God lifted his head to respond to the Voice, and stood there on the mount strong and pure and grand, a man marked out by the Lord for special treatment, a friend and favorite of the Most High. Now he was a man wholly surrendered, a man utterly obedient, a man who possessed nothing. He had concentrated his all in the person of his dear son, and God had taken it from him. God could have begun out on the margin of Abraham’s life and worked inward to the center; He chose rather to cut quickly to the heart and have it over in one sharp act of separation. In dealing thus He practiced an economy of means and time. It hurt cruelly, but it was effective.

I have said that Abraham possessed nothing. Yet was not this poor man rich? Everything he had owned before was still his to enjoy: sheep, camels, herds, and goods of every sort. He had also his wife and his friends, and best of all he had his son Isaac safe by his side. He had everything, but he possessed nothing. There is the spiritual secret. There is the sweet theology of the heart which can be learned only in the school of renunciation. The books on systematic theology overlook this, but the wise will understand.

After that bitter and blessed experience I think the words `my’ and `mine’ never had again the same meaning for Abraham. The sense of possession which they connote was gone from his heart. things had been cast out forever.They had now become external to the man. His inner heart was free from them. The world said, `Abraham is rich,’ but the aged patriarch only smiled. He could not explain it to them, but he knew that he owned nothing, that his real treasures were inward and eternal.

There can be no doubt that this possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in the life. Because it is so natural it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is; but its outworkings are tragic. We are often hindered from giving up our treasures to the Lord out of fear for their safety; this is especially true when those treasures are loved relatives and friends. But we need have no such fears. Our Lord came not to destroy but to save. Everything is safe which we commit to Him, and nothing is really safe which is not so committed.

Our gifts and talents should also be turned over to Him. They should be recognized for what they are, God’s loan to us, and should never be considered in any sense our own. We have no more right to claim credit for special abilities than for blue eyes or strong muscles. `For who maketh thee to differ from another? and what hast thou that thou didst not receive?’

The Christian who is alive enough to know himself even slightly will recognize the symptoms of this possession malady, and will grieve to find them in his own heart. If the longing after God is strong enough within him he will want to do something about the matter. Now, what should he do?

First of all he should put away all defense and make no attempt to excuse himself either in his own eyes or before the Lord. Whoever defends himself will have himself for his defense, and he will have no other; but let him come defenseless before the Lord and he will have for his defender no less than God Himself. Let the inquiring Christian trample under foot every slippery trick of his deceitful heart and insist upon frank and open relations with the Lord.

Then he should remember that this is holy business. No careless or casual dealings will suffice. Let him come to God in full determination to be heard. Let him insist that God accept his all, that He take things out of his heart and Himself reign there in power. It may be he will need to become specific, to name things and people by their names one by one. If he will become drastic enough he can shorten the time of his travail from years to minutes and enter the good land long before his slower brethren who coddle their feelings and insist upon caution in their dealings with God.

Let us never forget that such a truth as this cannot be learned by rote as one would learn the facts of physical science. They must be experienced before we can really know them. We must in our hearts live through Abraham’s harsh and bitter experiences if we would know the blessedness which follows them. The ancient curse will not go out painlessly; the tough old miser within us will not lie down and die obedient to our command. He must be torn out of our heart like a plant from the soil; he must be extracted in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our soul by violence as Christ expelled the money changers from the temple. And we shall need to steel ourselves against his piteous begging, and to recognize it as springing out of self-pity, one of the most reprehensible sins of the human heart.

If we would indeed know God in growing intimacy we must go this way of renunciation. And if we are set upon the pursuit of God He will sooner or later bring us to this test. Abraham’s testing was, at the time, not known to him as such, yet if he had taken some course other than the one he did, the whole history of the Old Testament would have been different. God would have found His man, no doubt, but the loss to Abraham would have been tragic beyond the telling. So we will be brought one by one to the testing place, and we may never know when we are there. At that testing place there will be no dozen possible choices for us; just one and an alternative, but our whole future will be conditioned by the choice we make.

Father, I want to know Thee, but my coward heart fears to give up its toys. I cannot part with them without inward bleeding, and I do not try to hide from Thee the terror of the parting. I come trembling, but I do come. Please root from my heart all Those things which I have cherished so long and which have become a very part of my living self, so that Thou mayest enter and dwell there without a rival. Then shalt Thou make the place of Thy feet glorious. Then shall my heart have no need of the sun to shine in it, for Thyself wilt be the light of it, and there shall be no night there. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

We received word from our adoption agency (CCAI) that our application has been approved! So we are good to start the paper chase to bring home another family member. As we’ve started mentally & emotionally gearing up for this adoption marathon I’ve found myself reflecting on Abigail’s adoption. I figured it might be fun to revisit some of the blog posts we put up as we worked to bring her home (from our family website – www.theleventhals.com). Here are ten of my favorite posts from our journey to get Abigail:

  • Our Quest for Abby” (05/06/2006) – this was my first attempt to try and explain why we wanted to adopt.
  • Your Daughter is in China” (06/03/2006) – how the Lord worked in Missy’s heart to bring her to the place where she was ready to adopt
  • Is this China” (07/28/2006) – the adoption process from the eyes of a four year old
  • We’d love for you to meet Abigail” (02/20/2007) – When we got our referral for sweet Abigail
  • A Day at Disneyland” (06/28/2007) – We spent a couple of days at Disneyland in Hong Kong helping Daniel & Caroline adjust to the time zone. Looking back I’m a little shocked we took a 2 ½ year old and a 4 ½ year old with us to China!
  • Gotcha…and we’re never letting go!” (07/02/2007) – Some pictures from our Gotcha Day
  • Gotcha Day Video” (07/02/2007) – A short video of our Gotcha Day…I love seeing Daniel & Caroline’s interaction with Abigail (might take a minute to download)
  • China Trip in 3 ½ Minutes” (07/17/2007) – A short video of sights from our trip (might take a minute to download)
  • The Long Road Home” (07/26/2007) – A short video of the process to get from China back to Texas…including our awesome welcoming committee! (might take a minute to download)
  • Our Day in Court” (06/20/2008) – Summary & pictures from Abigail’s re-adoption in Texas

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