So I’ve spent the past couple days processing the whole for-profit vs. non-profit route. And the reality is that there is a lot underneath that questions. Wealth-building has been on my mind for years. The security…better, the illusion of security that comes with wealth. The comfort found in a big rainy day fund….and the ease of not having to truly trust God.
Hupomeno is a perfect example. My original concept had it as a “for-profit” company…not so that I can fully engage in the mission but so that I can engage in the mission AND make sure I’m taking my share of the profits. The reality is that Hupomeno as a non-profit clearly makes more sense – but that is going to require me dying to some financial dreams and hopes. I know intellectually that there is no security in wealth, but my heart still craves and illusion of security. Why do I feel as though I need not live by faith – that somehow I can please God without faith? (“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.” (Heb. 11:6)). Am I different from everyone else or just more self-deluded? Why do I think I can store up treasures on earth and have the Lord be okay with that? “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” (Matthew 6:19-21). The insanity of it all…the pride and arrogance that dwells in the deepest core of my heart….the desire to walk the fence and not fully commit with what the Lord wants to do for fear that I will be missing out on something….that somehow He will cheat me out of what I want, of what I think I need.
So – we’re going with the non-profit route!
- David
